I’ve thought about changing my blog and starting an online gossip magazine. It would feature the latest news and gossip on celebrities. It’d probably get more views am I right? The thing is, it’s easier to write about the lives of other people. To give opinions on the way they live their lives is easier and possibly more interesting, but it takes a lot of guts to write about the journey you are on.
To expose your own imperfections and inner thoughts. To share with the world the experiences you’ve had is courageous, I think. All of those various situations and circumstances I’ve attempted to conceal due to shame from childhood till now. This isn’t something I have to do. No one is asking me to share these tales and these thoughts. This is something I’ve chosen to do. To release myself to the thoughts and opinions of others, but on my own terms. The way I am most comfortable doing so.
It could be due to the fact that I’m fully aware that I have been misunderstood majority of my life. My dad and I joked about this a few weeks ago because not too many people grew up like me. Being aware, even at an early age that I am sometimes unrelatable, I’ve attempted to blend in. It’s been a survival method for me. Not wanting to appear too different because differences lead to being noticed with the possibility of receiving negative consequences.
I use this platform as a way to explain myself. To showcase why I am the way that I am. Allowing my introverted-ness to have a voice because you won’t consistently hear it on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, or any other Social Media platform. I just can’t be on Facebook every hour posting something. I am not a selfie poser that must check the lighting to show the outfit of the day or my newest hairstyle. I feel uncomfortable doing these things on those sites. Ironically, I feel more at home on my website, my blog, which is my place of release doing those things.
So this is where I am most freely showing you who I am and the place I feel most safe to do so. All at my own pace, about whatever I want, and however I want. I will always as best as I can be respectful….
I’m now okay with being different. I no longer have the desire to try to blend in and conform. I am finally okay with being me. If you’re interested, then you can journey with me as I continue to learn about myself and express my thoughts on Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Being Me.
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Please read my previous blog post: Venting: Feeling Unappreciated